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[Jun. 17th, 2006|02:57 am] |
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| | Acceptance by So Contagious | ] |
well ahoy-hoy. havent updated in some time. but we just graduated so i figured hey y not-- i can look back n see how much thigns have changed right?? rock on..
wellllllll i am dating mr. kevin patrick again and we are doing lovely.=) i need to realize in life that not every relationship will go as smoothly as i imagine. this goes for me and my family, mom especially, friends, boyfriend, and myself. fighting seems to have followed me my entire life and i wish it would stop. i want to grow up, not like turn 40, but i want to like mature i should say. i dont want to be as careless and irresponsible as i have been for 18 years. yeah maybe those might be qualities that people might find fun about me, but its a hard life not having a work ethic or any ability to keep anything clean. its a disease dude... jesus. speaking of that... i want to find a religion that suits me. i am not sure what it might be? i have never really gone to a catholic church, only to get my communion. but i wanna see if that suits me or what i believe in. i dont know quite yet. i dunno, i want to round myself out.
im waiting to hear back from the nurse manager at Lutheran General Hospital<3. I must say that i adore that place. i have never in my life been so comfortable in another place rather than the Paulish home as i was there. Is that odd? HELL YES it is. its a hospital, who is comfortable there?? me. i want to work there. i want to give back to them what they have given me. well i am awaiting that call. im becoming a wee impatient. but i can wait=)
wellllll things at home have been getting kind of sticky. i am misunderstood. that is an understatement. i have my issues, and maybe i dont know how to get my feelings across. i get kind of edgy around that time of the month and the tiniest things bother me and i make it known im bothered. i want to stop. i feel as if i am pushing the people i love away from me and i cant stand it. i am on a lonely island and everyone is speeding in beautiful boats around me as im eating bird poop. poooooppiieeee. well thats also something im going to work on.
i saw BROKEBACK MOUNTAIN the other night. I absolutely loved it. i was a little skeptical at first because i didnt know what to expect. i wasn't skeptical because of the homosexual aspect --- because hey if you are gay... lets go shoppping or teach me what its like because the homosexual part of peoples lives just fascinates me. dont ask, its not something i can explain but the fact that some people just have the will power to do and be whoever they are inside their hearts is just mind boggling. like somepeople have a hard time being themselves straight. i just admire some people. but back to the movie. it was so passionate and classy that i just was impressed. ::sigh:: i highly reccommend it. it starts off kind of slow and some thigns are pretty unexpected but overall, it fulfilled me. =)
well that is enough for now. not like anyone read this but i dont care. it was fun to write out what was on my mind.
i love u boogers
katie |
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[Feb. 2nd, 2006|06:08 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Look After You by The Fray<3 | ] |
sooo SCREW LIVEJOURNALL!!!! i had a whole thing typed out, but to use the stupid rich text, deletes it all. fuckers, i dont even wanna type it again. but whatever..i will sure why not.
sooo this could possibly be one of the hardest times in my measly 18 years. so i suppose its pretty significant. my first love..<3. so i guess when u hold something soo close to ur heart for so long, when it slips away it just tears that part away with it. right now i feel like im laying in the middle of a white room bleeding endlessly waiting for a butcher to come and take the rest of me to feed to the hungry dogs. (dogs are the freakinggg worlddd) buttttttttttttt hurting is inevitable in life. i guess i should have seen it coming. =( i keep waking up with these cold sweats terrified, no more like dreading the day coming on. i just wanna lay n hide n watch sweet november, walk to remember, and mr deeds over n over. but i cant. so i wont. back to school i went. day wasnt too bad. only cried 3 times. better than the past few days i suppose. im bein pretty open..hmm. o well. i miss it so much, so much that sometimes i find it hard to breathe n i need to stop and catch my breath. but i need to look at what i miss. you know? sometimes when there are problems you never know what can come of them. maybe someday things will work out. but, idont know. i dont wanna talk anymore.
-katie
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[Dec. 21st, 2005|08:52 pm] |
1. What time is it? 8:52 pm
2. Name: Katherine J
3. Nickname(if any): Katie, kt so, homie bologna, so.
4. If you were a skittle: i'd be extra chewy.
5. Single or taken?: taken
6. Zodiac: Sagittarius
7. Hair color: a brownish blondish.
8. Eye color: Hazel.
9. Height: 5'5" wit brown eyeeessss=)
10. Favorite Color: Lime Green
11. Glasses, contacts or neither: glasses...contacts soon enough.
12. Braces? im supposed to..well see though..
13. Piercing/tattoos?: ears...want a tat
14. Birthplace: Luthern General.
15. Are you a virgin? no
16. Siblings names: Michelle n Joey
*****HAVE YOU EVER******
17. Cut your own hair?: yeah
21. Skipped school? yeah
22. Bungee jumped: no dem bitches dont touch this beast..
23. Went to a concert?: yepp
24. Kissed someone of the same sex not related to you? hahahaha....yup
25. Kiss more than two people in one day: yeah
26. Stared at the stars for hours?: Yeah
27. TP'd someone's house?: hell yes.
28. Won something?: Yep
29. Asked someone out?: yep
30. Been rejected? heck yep
31. Been to a funeral?: yeah=(
32. Used a lighter?: not usefully
33. Been on stage?: Yepp
******FAVORITE*****
35. Food: mexican
36. Ice cream flavor: pink bubblegum or rainbow sherbertt
38. School subject(s): writing
39. Breakfast cereal: dont really eat cereal...milk factor >=O
40. Number(s): 63
41. Book(s): the wedding and catcher in the rye
42. Movie(s): the notebook, wedding crashers, anchorman
45. State: CaLiFoRnIa<333
46. Place: my car
47. Sport to watch on TV: baseball..xoxcubsxoxo or my burrrrs
49. Bands/musicians: falloutboy, dashboard, postal service, OAR, or the Kelly
50. Letter(s): K is pretty sweet
51. Fast food restaraunt: johnnys beef
52. Cartoon Character: homer simpson
53. Holiday: it was christmas..but its becoming too hallmark-y.
54. Name for a son: alexander
55. Name for a daughter: adalena
******DO YOU PREFER******
56. Chocolate or Vanilla? Chocolate.
58. Long relationships or one night stands?: Long relationships.
59. Dogs or cats?: dogs most def
60. Scary movies or comedies?: Comedies.
61. Silver or gold: Silver.
62 Croutons or bacon bits?: bacon croutons.
******FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO MIND******
64. MEXICANS: potatoes bein thrown at my butt...LePeeP hahaha
65. School: football games.
66. Grass: sweet ass smell when it was just cut...and summer.
67. Cow: mirror image.
68. Canada: damn canadians.
69. Mouse: what i look like with my swollen face.
70. Hand: nails
******THE PAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU******
71. Watched a movie? nope
72. Talked on the phone? yep
73. Cried?: yep
74. Threw up?: tried to...but no.
75. Drank a glass of water?: Yep
76. Talked to the opposite sex?: Yep
77. Read a book or magazine?: yep
78. Watched TV?: Yep
79. Looked in the mirror?: for about 45 minutes.
80. Taken a shower?: Yep
81. Taken a picture?: yep
82. Listened to music?: right nowwwww
83. Kissed someone?: Yep
84. Done your Home Work? Nope
85. Told someone you loved them? Yep
***DO YOU BELIEVE IN....******
86. Heaven?: some sort...i just dont know where or how
88. Aliens? Nope
89. Fun for the entire family? not in my family
90. Freedom of speech? Yeah.
91. Love?: Yeah.
92. Magic?: No.
*******SOME RANDOM STUFF******
93. Last movie you saw in theatres?: ummmmm.....i dont remember
94. Are you listening to music right now?: yeah - over my head..the fray.
95. What clothes are you wearing right now?: illini sweatshirt, comfy pants, knee socks,
97. What is the best thing since sliced bread? me bitches.
98. What color is your backpack? either green, or brown with a pink flower.
99. Who is Mike Jones?: mi papa |
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| scariest night of my life... |
[Dec. 21st, 2005|08:41 pm] |
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| [ | music |
| | Ghost - Howie Day | ] |
well it started out as an awesome nite...gettin ready to go out with my main girl chachiorito gutierrez. n im chillin there in the kitchen, changin my voicemail n such to make it christmas-y. and im chompin on some cashews my mom bought for me cuz i told her i wanted to add all the food groups into my diet. smart eh? well i finish my voicemail after eatin about 12-15 nuts. and all of the sudden i feel my throat tingling, i didnt think too much of it. so i went back n ate a few more n then it hit me like a ton of unsuspecting bricks. my throat was closing drastically and air was becoming shorter and shorter. at this point i thought i was dying. i immediately called kevin and asked him what was happening to me. my ears started to itch horribly deep inside almost as if it was a little elf tickling my ear drum with a feather. he told me he was coming over asap. then natalia calls me, and at this point my air supply was little to none, i could barely speak, only in sobs i told her what was goin on. after i got off the phone..i hung my head in the kitchen sink guzzling water. glass after glass after glass. no improvement. only worsened. i now had bumps lining the roof of my mouth and tongue and cheeks. my tongue was swollen as if i just got it pierced. to make a long story short...my mom got home finally and took me straight to the ER cuz i was gettin dizzy, and i couldnt even talk more than a whisper. my body was becoming weak, and my entire body was itching. we got to the ER and the nurse took one look at me, and grabbed me and we ran to a room. she stuck an IV in me right quick, and started poundin down benadryl and other meds to make the itching stop. my face was totally swollen, my eyes almost swollen shut. my lips were huge, and my cheeks were full blown. within 10 minutes of the IV injections, my entire body broke out with horrific hives. nonstop scratching for 2 hours. ouch. feelin the aftermath of that now..let me just tell u. showerin?? ooooooooooomg burn me. well long story to now..im allergic to nuts. out of no where. yay. love life. natalia - thank u so much for bein there for me. u probly saved my lifee dude. u n kp for sure.
i love uuuuu. makes u wonder...somethin like that can happen out of no where! i had an almond salad the day before...hmm. idk. be careful wut u eat, and if u ever feel tingly...call 911.
katie |
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[Dec. 18th, 2005|06:04 pm] |
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| | Self Against City - All Alone On Christmas | ] |
1) Was 2005 a good year for you? umm yes and no. a lot of drama, but a lot of new beginnings.=)
2) What was your favorite moment of the year? finding a set group of friends that ive been looking for since i moved here.
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? my parents divorce
4) Where were you when 2005 began? in a hotel room crying cuz i lied to my mommy..hahahaha.
5) Who were you with? kebby paulish
6) Where will you be when 2005 ends? who knows..fuckin dramatic kids n their separation ideas.
7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends? my friends n ppl i love=)
8) Did you keep your new years resolution for 2005? never made one.
9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006? stay the way i am right now, but build up. ANDDDDDD never settle for less than what i want.
10) Did you fall in love in 2005? homie 2003
11) If yes, with who? Kevin Patricia Joshua Paulish hehee=)
12) If yes, do they know? i guess so lol
14) You regret it? sometimes when i want to punch him in his vagina. but otherwise never.
15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005? yepp..like 4 times.
16) Did you make any new friends in 2005? YES!!
17) Who are your favorite new friends? Carlie(reunited),
18) What was your favorite month of 2005? september-october
19) Did you travel outside of the US in 2005? nope..
20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005? wisconsin
21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005? julie goostree, my natalia for a while there, kevin about 4 times,
22) Did you miss anybody in the past year? everyday...=(
23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005? no clue..wedding crashers probly.
24) What was your favorite song from 2005? Hands Down by Dashboard Confessional or Over My Head by The Fray.
25) What was your favorite record from 2005? Ashlee Simpson.
26) How many concerts did you see in 2005? none..boo.
27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005? sucka read it.
28) Did you drink a lot of alcohol in 2005? No
29) Did you do a lot of drugs in 2005? no drugs..only hugs brotha
31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year? hell yeah..made a fool out of myself in some arguements and realized that i was doin some stupid shit.
*****where's question number 32, tom kelly and natalia chachor?*****...yeah where's question number 32?!
33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005? "im fine" or "good i dont miss you"
34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005? yes.
35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005? yes.
36) How much money did you spend in 2005? omg please shoot me or put me in jail and i WILL NOT PASS go.
37) What was your proudest moment of 2005? probabllyyyy.....growin up n establishing a real relationship with my mom.
38) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005? having a motherrrrr f'in athsma attack at karaoke night laying on the stage dying praying for air in front of a fucking full auditorium while julie yells "katie get up" fuck u im dead.
39) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change something what would it be? i wouldnt...i wouldnt want to change where i am now.
40) What are your plans for 2006? stay close with my favorite girls, have a kick ass 2nd sem of senior year, and just start my life off right.=) |
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[Dec. 16th, 2005|04:45 pm] |
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| | Greatest Hits by Kritney Spearinski | ] |
Name 5 of life's simple pleasures that you like most, then pick 5 people to do the same. Try to be original and creative and not to use things that someone else has already used. Tag 5 people on your list.
1. watching full house under a blanket drinking gingerbread latte coffee with 2 teaspoons of sugar.
2. laughing with my close..true friends.
3. giving advice...greatest feeling to guide someone.
4. singing..in my undies when no one is home=) just call me brit-ski
5. smiling..its my favorite.
I will tag:
natalia
kari
haha idk n e 1 else that reads this shitt....=) |
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| holy..wooooooooooshhh!! yep thats the sound of time flying |
[Dec. 13th, 2005|04:31 pm] |
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| | Beauty in the Breakdown - The Scene Aesthetic | ] |
it is already 3 days before my last winter break is here. i cant believe it. ive always heard my parents and people tell me to not let life fly by me, and pay attention to things because im gonna be grown up like that..SNAP SNAP. holy they were right. n i feel so cliched tellin people the same thing. so i just dont say it. haha figure it out yourselves bitches. =)
came back from the dells sunday afternoon. fun ass weekend. i was a lil nervous at first, but everything turned out sweetly. a lil bit of drama during..but hey its always a learning experience eh? well since im 18 i really need to find a good good paying second job. anyone have n e ideas? im drownin here..i am in debt with like 6 people, my phone and my car. its so frustrating to wake up every morning knowing that you have things hanging over your head that you just cannot take care of because you just dont have it. i hate myself for it. i do. n i resent that. but oh well. ill make the best of it.
people keep askin me wut i want for christmas..but i just cant think of n e thing. i just want to be happy simple enough. if you could give me the joy of true friends, a united family, and a healthy body for good--i would just want to mother your children even if you wanted 92. cut that shit open. haha.
well im gonna go look through the phone book and try to find my broke ass a job. wish me luck christmas whores=)
love youuuuuuuuuuuu
katie
ps: thank you natalia and kari for commenting--yay. =) |
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| yay its my birthday... |
[Dec. 3rd, 2005|06:45 pm] |
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| | Best Thing That You Never Had by Butch Walker | ] |
im 18 motherfuckerrsss!!!!!!! holy..i cant believe it. i remember bein in like 8th grade sayin.."when i grow up..." Now I am grown up. Well almost. Last night a bunch of us went out to eat at Bahama Breeze. Pretty sweet place, not gonna lie. The food was pimpin, the temp was FREEZING. it was cool i had mostly everyone that i care about around me. cept for a few mishaps--but whatever works. i had the bestest there so it was pretty rockin. i guess i was a little upset that the drinkin thing affected some things but--w/e. i guess it was important? w/e.. well it ended out with me gettin bitched at for the gayest reason on the planet. but hey i guess it wasnt gay to that person. but honestly--yes it was. o well. today was a better day. went out to breakfast with my mommy, went shoppin wit her, n then came home n went to my grammas for a lil, talked to a friend for a lil, went to my cousins birthday party watched my brother n cousins n niece n nephew swim around for a while n then sat n talked wit the fam--it was fun=). thennnn came home found a million rose petals n figured out kevin bought me wicked tickets for my birthday=)=)=). natalia chachioritio gutierrez was in on it..haha loser mc fag juice. =) n now im gettin ready to go to kevin's Carnica Company Picnic. should be fun but im nervous because i dont know anyone really...soooo we'lll see. eat n then get the fuck out. my plan. well i just wanted to say thank u for makin my birthday fun. haha natalia u r the only one that reads this. if not then comment u bitches.
xox
katie.
ps: at 8:43pm, think of me..i popped out of my moms cooter at that exact moment. tee hee. |
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| first post in about a year... |
[Nov. 29th, 2005|10:48 pm] |
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| |  satisfied | ] |
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| | Suspension by Mae | ] |
well i figured that it was an appropriate time to make a new posting or entry whatever it is called in the live journal world now a days..haha.
well i guess this year has gone up and down and up and down. i have loved and lost, loved and gained, loved and been mutalized(spelling..dumb moment). Even through all of my experiences so far, which have been coming more and more, i feel like a much more fulfilled person and i have so much more faith in myself and in my friends. Well not all of them to be truthful...i lost a very close friend yesterday. Although it has been a long time coming, it still hit home to me. it almost like shocks me that someone could be one of the coolest people you've ever met, but then out of no where turn into a bloodsucking demon who is out to watch your heart bleed to death on national television for everyone to enjoy. simplest description i could find..=). although there was one good outcome of the whole procedure. i had a chance to become closer with someone that i had been sadly losing touch with slowly. but we caught it intime and now she is an amazingly large pillar of strength, love, hope, faith and humor in my life and i dont think i could survive a day without seeing her smile at me. haha sounds lesbianish but this girl has carried me through some of the hardest times. Saving Private Katie is the story of our friendhsip. haha maybe saving private bologna's? haha works better=)
as for my love life?? jesus y dont u just call that thing raging bullshit. but w/e...i feel exciting things happening and i am excited=)
overall..im happy with where im at..and i couldnt do it without the ppl that surround me=)=)=)
katherine j |
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| bored..never update |
[Jul. 7th, 2005|12:32 am] |
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